Knock Knock

[AshleyMommyto2]

Who is it?
AF!!!!

Ugh she knocking and suppose to be here tomorrow. I know I said we weren't trying but not preventing. But this is our 2nd cycle and I know we are just headed down the same path we were before with Eli. I could just cry at the though of her showing up again... Why? We aren't trying I know that.. I really didnt' think this would bother me so much... Plus I really wanted to get pg on my own this time. You know... Why can't I be like one of those girls whose husband just looks at her and she gets PG? My Mom was that way.. So when I struggled for Eli she was just helpless. Supportive but really didn't know what I was going through...
I know if I called my Dr. right now he would call me in my clomid and I would be pg next month... But I want to do this on my own, and there is still a part of me that is scared as hell!
What do I do....

[Ashley]

:hug: I'm sorry you're having to go through this! I'm not a lot of help. We did ttc for a long time for Lily, but I don't have the experience with the meds. I can understand not wanting to take something. But, if it's what it takes to get pregnant- I guess you have to weigh what would be better. The ttc process, as I know you know, can be very trying and frustrating. If you know you will eventually need assistance, it may be easier emotionally to just go right with it. I don't know though, because I didn't go through it, so I may be full of it! No matter what you decide, we are here to support you! :support:

[Jojo]

:hug:

I am hoping and praying we will not need clomid next time round. I was a beast on it. So I know how you feel. If I do need it then I'll do it though. :support:

[Mama Sandy]

:bluehug:

What do you do? You do whatevery makes you feel the most comfortable and less stressed about TTC. It's nearly impossible to be stress-free about it but lessen the stress in any way you can.

[Farah]

You are a lot like me. I want to do it with less heart ache and work this time. It's just not guaranteed though. So, you can "not try" a few months, see what happens, and get on the meds when you're ready to "try" or you can do it now. Whatever causes the least amount of heartache.

I know how I am and I think that I would be the person to try on my own a while and then, when I felt like I couldn't take it anymore, I would start the meds. Do what makes you feel best.

[Carmen]

I just wanted to send you hugs.

[Blue Eyes 409]

I am sorry ((((hugs))))

[Susana]

:hug:

[AshleyMommyto2]

Thanks Girls! :love: I still don't know what to do... My heart so no wait and do it on your own. But my head says you know better! I am a very independent person, I don't like help I like doing things on my own. "Bullheaded" I guess you say....:eyeroll:
I am soo thankfull I have you girls! And I know if I go down the med path again I have your support! ;)

Jo~ Clomid made be a beast too!;) It was crazy I felt like I was going through the change of life!! LMAO!! Poor Dh he got alot of my anger!!! :hehe:

[Andrea]

:bluehug:

[Heather]

I'm sorry she showed girl. (((HUGS))) I was prepared myself to have to take meds again, and my doctor had even already given me a prescription. You can always do Femara instead of Clomid! I hear it's not as bad side effect wise. Anyway, we're here for you with whatever happens. xoxo

[AshleyMommyto2]

Thanks girls! The witch showed Friday! Of course to ruin my weekend... But she hasn't been to bad.... I did by some OPK's and I am going to try them this cycle. I will take pics so you girls can help figure out if they are for sure positive!! ;)

I talked to DH a little about my feelings on this, plus he saw the OPK was like ugh? I told him I know I said I wouldn't start this soo soon but I just can't help it. He said he was ready for whatever I was ready for. He just doesn't want it to be like last time with me crying every month...:eyeroll: In October I am going to talk to my Dr. about some meds again. I think after giving myself 6months of really trying I will totally be ready for the meds again...

[Farah]

I'm glad you've come to terms and have a plan!! Sometimes just telling yourself "Look, I'll try it your way first will be fine, then....onto the big guns!" helps! :support:

[AshleyMommyto2]

Yep that is what I am telling myself Farah!

"Body you better get into gear or you are going to face the beast!!" LMBO:p